When You Wake Up Low

For the past 2 months i have had people, friends, new close friends just open up to me about their life story.

Some of the other stories, deep true ones, i captured on my social media accounts where they shared them so genuinely to find strength and faith and a push…

Sometimes, we wake up or sleep or spend a day feeling SO ungrateful,

We wake up mad at nothing and everything,

depressed for no reason or for all the reasons in the world, we tell ourselves.

We wake up without aim sometimes,

Only to wonder why do i have to go to work today,

Or why do i have to be there, have to do that, have to take that?

On other days we may wake up feeling tired,

Blue, lazy, in need of that “me time”, that inner peace,

In need to find the answer,

the answers to our existence, or to why are we so “comfortable” where we are and don’t want to aim higher or farther,

We may wake up wondering,

what’s my purpose? Why am i here?

What good am i doing and,

what difference can i make in a world where…

others would kill for attention or

where others are already the powerful and the rich, and the influential…

What difference would i make, If i share myself, my art, my skill set?

my talent, my job, my love, kindness, my insecurities?

Well…

To all of those days and self-thoughts, here is what the past two months have revealed to my now-watery eyes and profoundly touched heart:

When you wake up low,

Think of your friend Abbas…. whose dad is fighting with liver cancer eating him up every day; yet, Abbas a 25/year old young man, shows up every day, and every Sunday,

All hyped up for our run, and our training; so energetically,

he’s like the mayor of the team, everyone knows him and goes the extra mile in all he does.

Looking at him, you’d definitely say, nothing can be wrong in his paradise!

And that smile … that can never be wiped off his face rain or shine!

When you wake up low,

Think of Aya.. your version of Aya too,whose cherished and close little sister is fighting with Multiple Sclerosis (MS) and has been at it for years now

That same Aya, shares a piece of her every morning, through a music link she sends.

And what music that is, sensational, sensual, cuts deep into emotions.Y

et Aya, oh Aya,

she remains the most creative human being, in film production;

manages to be a writer as well with a first book on the way and dreams as beautifully and real as a 5 year old.

When you wake up low,…

Think of Michele… who turns out is fighting lymphoma, and her fb posts call it,

“Only a chapter of my life..”

That 23 year old ambitious nutritionist, striking young lady whose beauty even took her to the Miss Lebanon pageant and became the talk of the town.

She… well she was never meant to be ordinary. A star.

When you wake up low…

Look very closely around YOU, think of Georges whose mom just lost her battle with cancer 10 days ago;

Think of the other George who lost his dad out of the blue 6 months ago no preparation;

Think of Nadim, my passionate, genuine, full of life MBA student, or your version of him in your circle, whose mum also passed away by another type of cancer just 2 weeks ago now.

When you wake up low,

Please, think of Abed, my (your version of a ) running buddy..

Who promised to join me in my next marathon in Europe, cause we ran the first in Beirut together as ONE; yet,

only 2 days ago, he revealed privately that his knee ligament is damaged and had started with a meniscus injury… but now,reality hit and an operation is due.

When you wake up low,

Remember Sharrow… a friend of a super friend i met who had a car accident and was hospitalized to be treated for just that; yet,

there he was then diagnosed with cancer and was crippled for 3 years, before doctors finally said he could get better on this new year.

When i spoke to him, walking his dog for 5 minutes under his building made his eyes SPARKLE.

When you wake up low,

Think of your version of Lily, a mother of 4 of the most beautiful girls i have met.

She married very young, into a well-off family. Down to earth, she lived her life

in the context she lived in, but four years later , things for her husband take a turn to the worst, and

the road got really bumpy; economizing became a lifestyle and ..

couple fights become the real deal for a long while with babies and kids to take care of and sustain.

One step at a time, with a lot of faith and love and kindness… they start getting through things,

She, determined to be an example to her girls, imposes herself on the job market,

and nails a job, then another at the university where i taught.

Shortly afterwards, she realizes her calling to “be all there” for her daughters slowly leaving the cocoon … she gives them wings – literally and metaphorically;

And when they flew off, she did not stop!!

She now is a passionate cook,

working from her own kitchen and taking her organic products out to the food expositions on Beirut’s streets,

for people to taste food that is made with love and care and healthy seeds,

served by a charming magical smile and a bubbly soul like one you have never met.

When you wake up low,

PLEASE, don’t you look without Seeing

Just Look around, SEE,

even your social media activity will reveal life stories, truths, losses, fights, chemo stories, tales of courage, passion beyond all that “happy-all-the-time moments snapped and collaged on social media”.

These things are real,

These people are everyday people like you.

They love to live, they love life too.

But like you, they have had their share of heartbreak, heartache,

They wrote books, letters, carved their feelings in the chosen few.

No battle in this life is easy to fight;

No life comes without battle,

Because in status quo, we perish as human beings created with a pumping heart and an active brain.

Every one is fighting a battle you know nothing about.

When you wake up low … now you ought to know,You have every reason to glow,You STAR, You are alright

Just take your ride,

Climb the tide,

Knowing you only get one life,

one day at a time to really live.

Look around and just SEE, when you wake up Low.

(:

All my love,

Joy

Jan. 30, 2018, 3am

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Want to Stop Hurting? Let’s :)

People around me have been hurting .. It made me genuinely sad..
and I felt responsible, i need/ed to do something.
I exist in this world, like you, for bigger reasons, for a greater purpose:
to be whoever i was created to Be and get better at it well because.. i was created to do what i do the way i do it, not the same way others do it..
I am sure you may be, or people in your circle are hurting..?
In my circle, particularly in this period, not 1 or 2 this past week that i knew of .. like Alara .. Sneha.. Sarah ..
[Add in the names of your cherished one’s here],
but several people were hurting. and I was compelled to share a dose of
love,
care,
compassion,
kindness,
support .. 
in my daily chain of kindness started two years ago and now including 102 people!!
and then, sharing things here with you, my precious ones, my world but you get an extended version, well because you have been so generous in your words, comments, and likes, you have been “life” – generous and i am forever grateful to you.
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This today my people, goes out to a friend of mine in India..
who hasn’t¬†been doing so well; because we all fall there, don’t we?
Into that pit…?¬†
But i got a sign of life from them and she reminded me actually that:
We must let things go, and there’s a catch:

When u let it go, it soon turns into your biggest strength: that is,  your story..

¬†A story u can tell those u choose to tell for the rest of ur life and¬†move¬†people you meet on your way ūüôā
Also, ive been to condolences this week…and something¬†happened, something big and magical.
I met a total stranger as i consoled my friend/colleague Sandra standing next to her.
And the young stranger [Celine, as i later was compelled to meet legitimately as i insisted on talking to her one on one;
there was something that pushed me to just STOP and talk to her, dig further..for what turned out to be a most beautiful human connection with someone who for a minute was a complete stranger, and in a minute, became someone unforgettable in my eyes and hers.]
she stared at me for a minute or two, looked at me with eyes that were at once:
sad and full of amazement, of disbelief, of trust;
eyes that wondered how on earth i captured her attention and heart.. to the extent that i made her feel something different than the pain she was feeling ¬†at that moment on that cursed day, when she had to stand there, among so many people, and hold back tears, to say goodbye to her grandmother …
She later admitted, she sensed¬†, “a positive energy” as i passed to share my words and condolences with Sandra..
I cannot explain it, what when Celine and I shared when our eyes locked, as i spoke out my words to Sandra and indirectly to Celine who was standing right next to her..
But it was real my people. It was so magical, a beautiful moment i never experienced before.
I felt .. like i lit her world, even for a fraction of a second, amid her sorrow, tears, and her “pit” .. truly, when you feel you have done that, you feel..
You connected to another human, to a soul that was so in need and in search of some sort of communication or a connection, to let itself outside the shell,
to share pain, concerns, sadness, grief, but all wrapped with the love to the person taken away from her.

My people, when you adjust your attitude, every morning, every hour, every minute of anger or anxiety or depression, 

People around you feel it, 

You connect,

And by sharing this with them, your adjustment,  u feel stronger, empowered, through them. 
#loveyourlife 

You are left with what u exactly need to make it in this life, every time, even if u had to start over, countless times.

#pickyourselfUP and get going:) why tomorrow not today?
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All my love, truly,
Joy
It’s the little things that count, in every aspect of life.”
July , 22, 2017 at 11.23pm