My beautiful people, please meet my Rita on my #542 Beirut Marathon #running Team
We had our first chat or little talk on Thursday as we completed our training.
We had total 70min of running to complete.
Follow your passion, or whatever you think you’ll love, always.
I could soo relate because her story, could have been mine if things had not changed for me the way they did to take me to where i am passionate and happy today.
Rita spent 9 years at Deloitte & Touche as Auditor.
She woke up one day, resigned within a month because she felt stuck.
She didn’t feel she was living or liking what she is SO good at.
People, colleagues..they kept asking, who head-hunted you? Tell us, tell us: you have Deloitte, 9 years …
she said, I am done with corporate life.
It took my life away from me.
No, i don’t regret it, but i wasn’t happy anymore.
I lost part of myself being in corporate, doing what i do and how i do it.
3months out today, she went to London, took a “shoe-making” workshop- yes you read right- and today she seeks employment in it here 🙂
She told me,
yes, i think i have the passion for it, i been inquiring and researching more about it here. I think i’ll love it. I want to work in it.
She wants to teach 🙂 she asked me about my experience about it.
She is so #happy she feels it, really, for a first time since the past 9 years.
More about our beautiful route that day:
We took a different direction than usual to have some uphill as well;
It was our first scenic route:) , reaching the below Raouche rock by sunset!
It was epic, my first time by that route on foot, and first time i see the scenery from up, overlooking the rock, as follows.
We started on the Corniche: photo 1, up to the road overlooking the Raouche Rock: photo 2:)
If you know a little about Lebanon, you’d know it has lots of green and touristic places in the mountains. But in Beirut, the population is big, green fields or parks are not so common. So, doing this route that night, when i met Rita, really met her story exposed me to the most astounding scenery:)
Sept.2, 2017 at 11.06am
“There will be times when your soul seems nothing but tired and your mind tries to pull you back into the darkness you have fought so diligently to be free of.
It is normal, and it is okay.
Being genuinely happy and at peace does not mean being in a consistent state of elation.
Don’t beat yourself up because you don’t wake up with a radiating smile every single day.
Understand that being vulnerable to negative emotions is a part of being human, and it in no way makes you weak or pathetic .
Continue to be patient and kind with yourself ,
Continue to fight through those draining moments and do not allow them to persist longer than they should.
You are in complete control;
sadness is simply a visitor within your mental space, not a permanent resident.
Chat with it, understand it, master it, and most importantly, know when to say goodbye.
You will make up the next morning and everything will make sense. It will all be wonderful. Believe that!”
I read this a while back my beautiful people. I honestly can’t remember when , where, who, or how, but it came up back today and i felt a lot of us out there need it. Truly🌈.
I have a new undertaking i’m dying to tell you about, my people.
It is literally changing my life, my every single day.
And so, telling you about it, i am sure you can relate it to your lives. Here’s a sneak peak (foto), stay tuned for more i promise in a new post for just “us time”.
All my love,
PS: Be happy, but let yourself be sad too ..because sadness, well, it brings people TogetheR in its own way, by revealing vulnerabilty, humility (tears), emotion, affection, care, love …
I miss you my people. I mean it.
My day’s lesson:
“The worst case scenario is that no one trusts […] everybody is suspicious“, [if/when you are kind and selfless]
#kindness helps you live multiple lives, instead of one, which is basically only yours.
With kindness, you get a piece of everyone’s lives.
Don’t you be scared to be “human”, the world is upside down, not you for being the way you are, being a “human” i.e. a compassionate.
I miss you my people. And I mean it because ..
I have been tied up with work commitments, leaving me to arrive home late, like you probably, with eyes too tired to open, let alone to look at a screen even if it’s for the one thing i love MOST: talking to you here, instead of to myself or overthinking on my own.
I hope you feel the same, cause this is our no judgment space, as always.
I think of you here, often, and of my not being here every day, especially to legit-ly meet you my new, recent followers and those who have met me through my beautiful new blogging friend Alara Karis:) and catch up with you my beautiful, most unique friends I’ve had in this life, really.
Never thought blogging would help me meet people and get to know them the way i do today and the way we make each other feel through our likes and/or comments.
This platform is by far the most generous: never failing to provide me (and you i hope) support, discretely or explicitly or both at once. It never failed to make me feel safe in my sharing, in listening, reading my thoughts,, giving, generously time among other things, and never failed in helping me find at least one blogger, “like-r” or comment-or who understood exactly where i was coming from..
All my love,
June 14, 2017; 10.13pm
Hello my people:):)
it’s 6.39am here and If i am delayed for 3 extra minutes, i may end up late to work; nonetheless, i have so much to tell you, but for time-constraint, i’m just going to share 1 of a gazillion beautiful things i have to tell this week.
Hope it makes your day, every day, really, cause each one of you deserves the best, and to be at their best, for you first and for all those around you.
She was a Mariah; a childhood friend. I lost her in grade 6 or 7. We were friends since kindergarten. Today, without knowing, we share a network of people we each met separately through university and workplaces basically. What a small world huh?!
[What about you? Please feel free to type in a relevant name…:) ]
I never thought i would actually talk about this one day … but here i am letting it out cause it has been on my mind, and because I am always truthful in my thoughts to you my people for one simple reason:
I know that deep down, each of us has been there, done that, or dealt with a “moving on” from one phase to another in this life, whether it was a phase or a person.
This has happened such a long time ago when i was like 13 or 14 years old i think, maybe a little younger: I lost my then-called “best friend”, “truly best” friend.
It’s not like i’m traumatized by that, at least not that i’m aware of its effect on me lol, but in the past 2 weeks, she has been popping right in front of me in different places, which got me thinking, and checking out what she’s been up to through social media channels.
We are not friends on fb or on social media, as i recall fb was non-existent when we use to sleep over each other’s etc.
And as it turns out, friends on my platforms have friends who are common friends with her, so it wasn’t such a hard job to find out where she’s been and what she’s been up to.
We go back to kindergarten. We use to hang out with each other all the time. Our parents became friends because we were inseparable . She was really where I would spend most of my time.
She was there when that girl in class was so jealous of me and we use to plot against her haha. She was there when I had my first sense of fashion, and she even got influenced by mine. We also did have that jealousy phase between each other. I use to come tell mom about it and the latter would just sit with me, explain how at our age, we are building our personalities and we do these things, we get jealous, we get irritated at times, but after all, she use to say, you are good friends, that’s what matters most, right?
And i’d just pack up my honest, simple heart, and meet her the next day, hang out as we claimed to our parents we were “studying together”:D
*i smile at the thought of how we’d just hang out and watch teli, or gossip a bit about stuff or what party we’ll be invited to.*
Then, one day out of the blue, been years together, she’s diagnosed with Diabetes. At the time, yes it was treatable and all, but, it was still something that altered your lifestyle, something that would make you think twice about going outdoors to bike or whatever because an injury for a diabetic person is tricky, or dangerous. Not as casual as it is today with all those high-tech, easy to carry, use and measure equipment. Times were different then really on that aspect, even though i am only 27 today, things jump started quite a bit since my teen years.
Back then, it also meant needles, and her responsibility to keep balancing that insulin level, detect hypo-or hyper-glycemia and keep a candy at hand just in cases..I know, no matter what she thought, it was hard on her. I don’t recall us talking about it, or how she dealt with it… for all i know she may have just surpassed it better than i’ll ever know. But, what i seem to remember – which honestly i have no idea why i remember all these details now that i decided to blog about it “shortly”- is that around that same time diabetes came up in her life, we had become a more “open” circle, where more, different friends came into our friendship.. Things were already changing on the friends front at the same time as her diabetes then.
I was feeling uneasy, hurt and cut deep, as now my one on one time, my “own best” friend as we saw it at that age, was preferring to spend more and more time with these new friends. Besides the fact that i was and still am a generous person who invests i others, especially friends, she was everything to me…
but apparently, not so much in hers? She was choosing to spend time with those friends who in my head, did not know her as much as i did. I liked them, but to be completely honest, i kind of knew that we were different, like, i knew, at 13-14 years of age, they were not my tribe, not those i’d entirely click with.
They chased things that did not really tempt me, read or followed news i was not entirely into or even slightly now as i try to recall, but it was fine with me, i could be a good sport and learn a bit more about what interested them.
But god knows how much i tried to play along. I wasn’t annoyed by them, but i just felt they were different. In their hearts, we carried still the same innocence and good up bringing, but in their heads, in our heads:
me and them- things were different, priorities differed, shallowness differed, what we wanted in life differed even at that age… and so, Mariah and I .. we began to drift apart.
It was a slow process, she became more friends with them slowly, then her mom also became friends with their parents who also led quite a different lifestyle than ours at home..
Now, what I draw from that context today is:
Holding a grudge really does nothing but shrink your world in this life you lead.
A few months back, I bumped into her at a beauty salon. I was in a different room, but the corner of my eye caught her. I realised then, i am not someone who carries grudges or who ever aims to carry one against whoever it was.
Since then, look at me, having you people here, my people on my good day email chain, my huge circles here in lebanon to the uk, to canada, south africa, the netherlands.. to around the world where my friend now are.
Life ladies and gents.. leaves no man behind, NO MAN BEHIND:)
Also, Not all people are meant to stay in your life: today i look at her, her circle of friends, her life, and I just don’t feel i belong there:)
It takes time to accept, but it will come, have some faith!
Like, i bet every one of you has a certain person or group of persons who they think they like, or they think ouh wonder what it would feel like to be part of their group, but then, you realise you wouldn’t be wearing shoes you are comfortable in every single day, or every single night you hang out with them.
I’d love to dedicate this blog post to E., whom i had promised to email yet still did not..and for other reasons she told me about;) Hope this post gives you a breath of fresh air by the time i reply to your email legitimately;)
With all my love,
Apr.27, 2017 at 12.39am
Genuine Exchanges We All Need: There is still someone like you in this world, yup;)
Miss you my people, sorry i have been less in touch than i’d love to, just taking care of some professional mishaps, but all will be well, it always has to end well, or it’s not the end, right?;)
I hope this post adds some food for thought into your Sunday chill zone:)
PS: I f you can read on, i have a music recommendation/a loveliest band i watched perform: Epic!
Sometimes, i think to myself, this society i am now part of, is not the same as it used to be. It often feels like I’m the only genuine person, looking for genuine fun, for genuine feelings, for a simple good time, a mutual sharing, caring, and exchange..A simple life and good moments to share with others with no nasty motives, when i am not working to make a living and provide ourselves and families.
I keep putting myself out there in the world, i do, really.
Most of us are putting in the effort to socialize; However, it seems like everyone is after something: your money, your power, your position, your connections..you name it, we all fell on (a) “wrong” person(s) in our life, haven’t we?
We don’t feel as comfortable anymore putting ourselves out there. You bet we won’t.
But ..my reality tonight shows: majority of others in this life, think the same as you do. You just need to ask the question and you will get an answer:)
Tonight.. I met a very dear person, a dear friend called M.B.who has settled in the UAE for 4 years or even more now, as far as i can recall us corresponding; he is visiting Lebanon for a week-lucky us!
We met tonight to watch an amazing band called Arnabeat perform at a beautiful pub, with 2 of his people: H. and M-A. That beautiful group of people showed me that even complete strangers can be/think/feel exactly like you do, wanting the same things you want in life: good people, good food, good stories, and so, a good time- all we need is be open, genuine, and exchange a bit of yourself – others will follow suit and tara!
The truth is, I have been in Lebanon for almost 1.5 years since i came back from the UK. Since, it has honestly been challenging to understand how people/the society has changed. The customs, values perhaps are still the same, but people have made it a bit tougher to deal with each other, in the sense, to be transparent and honest about their intentions towards you or your friendship..
In any society or nation of this world, when things get tough, i.e. the national economy and growth stifle, or when politicians’ intentions are no longer centered on the people, new laws are ambiguous, or when making a decent living becomes a heavier burden..people feel it first.
Out of survival instinct, aka Dr. Steve Peter’s Chimp Paradox, it seems we shut down the generous side of us, the genuine giving character and social character because we feel everyone/everything around us is taking a piece of us, or is a potential threat to our wealth, health, and welfare. It makes sense right?
However, tonight, meeting this adorable group of new people has shown me that despite life’s uneasiness, every one of us still values and indulges in intimate, genuine bonds of social interaction and friendship.
Simply put then, We all love good company and a good vibe on a weekend night out, don’t we?
So, you are not alone in your thinking; you are not alone in feeling the fear to put yourself out there; you are not alone in appreciating a good friend, a genuine exchange and getting to know new people.
Others appreciate them, but our world has just made it more difficult for people like you, me, and those with you on this journey, to be as genuine. So stick to what you value, and you will see how other will fall into your circle, appreciating, loving your attitude and thus revealing their exact same attitude to you because deep down, we long to be heard and appreciated by others, we really do.
We are all connected.
We are all still looking for this now-rare “race” of people, this extinct species capable of carrying this positive vibe to the dinner table, this easiness to initiate conversations, exchange hilarious life incidents, or just this dancing-the-night away attitude, for the sake of a good time and a good, well-deserved laugh after a week(s) of hard work.
When we left tonight, this new group of people I spent the eve with were no longer strangers, but they also shared how “rare people like you are in this world these days [Joy].”
This was meant as a compliment and it touched me deeply; however, it is also at the same time not entirely true because my evening with them revealed there are still other people like Me in this world 🙂 We value the same interactions and simplicity in chats and fun!
I mean, who does not like to be at a dinner table and listen to jokes or funny stories and exchange his/hers? Who prefers to listen to nagging and whining and heart-breaking stories or to look at artificial people showing off all night?
Who does not like to make new friends? to share what they do and know with someone interested to listen?
Who does not like to feel a sense of security and trust amplified? Who does not enjoy exploring other people’s stories (hardship lessons or achievements’), hobbies, passions, and find someone whose hobby complements his or hers and can take it to further heights?
There is someone, many actually, like you in this world; they share these heart-felt needs to bond with people over simple fun, simple exchanges, simple goodness.
We just need to find each other, and the only way to do that, is you to open up, show a piece of your genuine self, not being scared, and see how magically others open up.
You are not the only human who appreciates this, or that, many others are like you, but the adversity in this world and the challenges to build a life amid current national and international developments is pushing you to lose yourself, your giving,transparent self, and to bury yourself in your own cocoon, where you think nothing bad can happen there, when in reality, you yourself would be degrading, losing yourself, your goodness, kindness, your communication skills that make you a human being, a compassionate creature by nature.
Very truly yours,
March 12, 2017